Keep Your Eyes Ahead

Well it has been awhile again!

I guess I'm just bad at this updating thing... I've been really busy with school and stuff [two more weeks!] It's getting to me, as it usually does right near the end of the semester. One word... overwhelming.

On a lighter note, I'll be 21 in less than a week! Not that it matters cuz I'm not a big drinker anyway... But at least I can drink without calling someone to get it for me now. Also, after break Matt and I are going to go to NYC! YAY! He promised we'd go to see the Christmas tree and stuff but we never got there because the day we were going to go it decided to snow... so now we waited until it was nice out! After that we're probably going to go to the beach for a couple of days cuz it's been a long time since he and I took a vacation alone together [just the two of us!] Actually, it's been about 2 years aka FOREVER! I guess we usually just go on vacation with other people along.

We also have a lovely day at good ol' Hershey Park with Matt's mommy & daddy. Just like the 12 million other times I've been there. And, we also talked about going back to Cedar Point before Matt finishs school and starts a real job. We were talking about going with RJ and Angela, but that will probably fall through since they are forever breaking up and getting back together... so who knows...

Well I guess that's all, I'll update when I have more time [after school!]

Little Devotional

Okay it's been a loooooong time! But, in my defense, I did try to update last week and it wouldn't let me.

Anyway, this week was my much needed spring break. I'm glad the semester is half way over cuz I can't wait for summer!! But, I'll probably take a summer course sooooo yeah... whatever. Who cares tho, summer is great!

On Wednesday, Matt and I celebrated our 2 years. I really can't believe it's been that long!!! But it's cool, we have a lot of good memories! I got him a Tomtom cuz he wanted one for some reason and he got me a really pretty necklace. It was nice...

Yesterday, Jess & I took a much needed trip to Philly! We didn't do a whole lot, just walked around south street a lot & then we had to pick up her nephew... It was fun and stuff but I didn't buy anything for once! Amazing!!!

Oh on Wednesday I also got my timing belt replaced so now my car is running normally (it was really bad!) Now I just need new brakes and my door fixed and all will be well with the car! Hopefully soon!

I never made a scene... they came to me.

Sooo I guess I'm still a litte lazy but I'm doing better with this updating thing.

There hasn't been a whole lot going on in my life right now. A lot of school and work... it keeps me busy. Lately my boss has been giving Matt and I off together so we can actually go on dates that don't consist of 2am visits to Jenny's Diner. Although, soon we won't have to work around Turkey Hill as much since Matt just had his interview for a drafting job and hopefully he gets it =) I know that would make him very happy! It's just amusing where he is going to be working for the first month or so until he gets into the office. They say they want him to expirience the field first lol... Playing with concrete and stuff...

Lately Matt and I have been wrestling with boredom tho... Anyone have any ideas of what there is to do around here when it's cold out? We're out of ideas and it kinda sucks. No more shopping though, I need to save money and Matty hates it so yeah... I have to change my timing belt in my car soon yay lots of money! Hopefully I'll get my stupid door fixed too.

In other news, my daddy just got a new truck... It's huge and a pretty dark blue color. If anyone wants his rusty nasty old one I think he's gonna try to sell it. (haha)

Tomorrow I'm suposed to do something with Melissa, hopefully I'll feel better than I did today cuz I'm beat. Two cups of coffee did nothing for me and I still have to study and write a paper! As usual... college is like hell sometimes.

Survey survey survey ;]


60 Things You Possibly Didn't Know About Me

1. What is in the back of your car?
some trash, bottled water, books

2. When was the last time you threw up?
a good while ago

3. What color is your toothbrush?
orange

4. Name one person that made you smile today.
Matt

5. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
just getting up

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
working on homework

9. What is the last thing you said aloud?
I've got a headache

10. What is the best ice cream flavor?
cookie dough or something fruity

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
coffee

12. What are you wearing right now?
Sweats, t-shirt, tank

13. What was the last thing you ate?
fruit snacks

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
yeah...

15. When was the last time you ran?
saturday?? before I started to feel sick

16. The last sporting event you watched?
hmmm can't say that I watch much, I don't have time

19. Ever go camping?
yeah who hasn't

22. Do you have a tan?
I actually have (very) little left over from last summer

24. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
nah

25. What did your last text message say?
"what?"

26. Are you someone's best friend?
well I hope so

27. What are you doing tomorrow?
school then maybe hanging out with Melissa, then Matt

28. Where is your mom? your dad?
they're both in the living room

29. Look to your left, what do you see?
clothes

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
kangaroos

33. What is your birthstone?
diamond lol

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
I usually go in, unless I'm with Matt cuz he's lazy

35. What is your favorite number?
11

36. Do you have a dog?
Yeah, she's annoying, little, and yappy

37. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Matt

38. Have you met anyone famous?
I don't think I have

39. Any plans today?
nothing but sleep... I'm sick =(

40. How many states have you lived in?
this one

41. Ever go to college?
yeah I'm there now

42. What do you want to be when you grow up ?
I'm not sure yet, I'd really like to write I guess

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Hmm right now it's not bad

44. Last song listened to?
I don't know what it was...

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
Haha, clogs, green & pink asics, or ballet flats

49. Are you jealous of anyone?
why would I be? I think I have what I want

50. Is anyone jealous of you?
maybe, who knows

51. Do you love anyone?
Yeah

52. Do any of your friends have children?
Yeah....

53. Do you eat healthy?
I try to, but I don't have to...

54. What do you usually do during the day?
school

55. Do you hate anyone right now?
nah, there's no point in hating people & if they hate me I just laugh as they make a fool out of themselves

56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
yeah... I work in a store

59. Have you ever been to Disney World?
yeah once

60. How did you get your scars?
I have too many scars to count... I was an adventurous kid

Live & Laugh

So it's been a few days, but I was actually busy for once (aka I did my homework) Monday was a fabulous day! Class was cancelled with Dr. Africa (always a plus!) So I went to Matt's house early since we actually had a day off together.

So basically Monday was the only day that I've had off with Matt in 5 weeks cuz our manager is evil like that. We watched some TV and then decided to go to the Exton mall cuz we got bored (I actually didn't buy anything!) Matt bought a new pair of pants for work cuz they were $6 and a blanket for his bed. We also went to Taco Bell cuz it was right there and Matt "tired" to race a Celica GTS in my car (hahahhaha yeah right)

When we got back to Matt's house he decided that he didn't like his cover and we had to go up to Reading to return it quick and get Emmy some bath dust. That was pretty much the day, but it was fun.

Yesterday I had to do homework because I didn't do it Monday night and then go to work. After that, I went over to Matt's again and we ran on the tred mill for a little and watched HGTV cuz we're dorks.

That's about it, today was school and nothing much else. Matt and I have off next monday and we're gonna celebrate V-day a little early and go out to eat somewhere. I can't wait until March 12th, it'll be 2 whole years since all that drama happened and I started dating Matt. He and I have a lot of memories but sometimes it feels like it all happened just yesterday. But, that just reminds me of how hard I had to fight to get what I wanted ♥

41 Facts 21 Secrets

In The Past 24 Hours

1. Talk to a cute boy/girl?
Ummm yeah ♥

2. Learn anything new?
All the time =]

3. Talked to an ex?
Nope

4. Miss someone?
Yeah...

-Last Person Who-

5. Laid in bed with you?
Matt

6. Last person made you cry?
I dunno, probably Matt

7. Went to the movies with?
I can't remember the last time I went to the movies

8. Went to the mall with?
Matty

10. Made you laugh?
My dad

11. Have you complimented anyone today?
Yes

18. What are you most afraid of?
Failure & ever losing my loverr

19. When do you want to get married?
like 2-3 years, doesn't matter

21. Does anyone like you?
I sure hope so

. Do you like being around people?
Most people

23. Have you cried recently?
A little while ago

24. Are you lonely right now?
Nope

25. Song stuck in your head?
Haha some annoying Avril song

28. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Unfortunately.... doesn't everyone go through this

29. What color shirt do you have on?
White

31. What time is it?
8:00p

33. What's your favorite food?
Ethnic

35. Who got you to join Myspace?
I think it was Zac lol

36. Can you lay in your bed all day?
Probably not, I'm too hyperactive for that shit

37. Wish someone was next to you in the morning when you wake up?
Oh you know...

38. What web site do you visit the most?
Myspace!

40. Do you have any plants in your room?
Some dead roses from last V-day

40. What was the best thing you did today?
Shopping (oops)

41. Who was the last person to talk to you?
My mom

-21 SECRETS-

1. What is your display name about?
It's me

2. Where was your default picture taken?
In my bathroom...

4. Honestly, if someone were to tell you how they felt, would you listen?
I always listen

6. What's your most valued possession?
My car

8. If you could go back in time and change something would you?
Yeah, I would never have stood Matt up the first time... but it all ended up well anyway

9. If you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
A cat ;]

13. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
Hell no

14. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes, smile, build... the basics

15. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Something mocha

16. Do u still watch kiddy movies or t.v shows?
Yeah sometimes

17. Do you have braces?
I did a loooong time ago

19. Do you speak any other language?
Very little Spanish & German

21. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Hell yeah

22. What hurts right now?
School

Yeah okay... && thanks for the memories

Sooo yesterday I went to work and it sucked. It was so boring and time just seemed to drag on and on... After work, I went over to Matt's house and we were going to hang out with Brandon but I dunno... Anyway, we ended up going to Jenny's for a little late night dinner. We really didn't do much else except talk and stuff. Matt told me that in a way, he's scared to get another car cuz he know's he'll get so many speeding tickets and stuff. Go figure... but I know he wants one...

I want a new car too! Sadly, I'm already tired of mine. I think I just want it to go faster and respond to me better (that could be bad.) Cuz as of right now, the cluch in the GTI is only 'alright' cuz both Matt and I can shift fast enough that it doesn't grab right away... but it doesn't really slip either... I dunno, I think it's just not made for perfomance (of course.)

Tonight I have to work again! Right now I'm writing for school. I'll probably bring my German and IPA to work. That'll annoy everyone... After work, I'll probably go to Matt's for a little and leave around 11:30 cuz I have icky school tomorrow. This semester wouldn't be bad at all if I didn't have Dr. Africa (again!) He's horible...

Anyway, I decided that for an end to this post I would put a bunch of memories between Matt and I. They go back to around August of '05... loooooooong time haha.

Memories♥
♦ You asked me how to spell associate the first time I met you =]
♦Calling you speed racer when you came to work
♦Hearing you at the traffic light o_O
♦Ice cream with Becca
♦When I stood you up for Field of Screams =[
♦You waking me up to find Kristen's house
♦Late night phone conversations
♦Talking about our PROBLEMS
♦Flirty texts =]
♦110, me, civic, cop... nuff said
♦Going to the Pagoda
♦Brandon racing my Jetta against your Civic (haha)
♦Notes//Letters
♦All that Drama && losing a lot of friends
♦Playing with Haley
♦Holding hands in the backseat of your Mom's car
♦Making me feel better =]
♦BOWLING!!!
♦Playing BASKETBALL with Katie & Jimmy on Easter
♦Skipping school to go to the mall in Pete's EVO (long time ago)
♦Your prom weekend at Ocean City MD =]
♦Your graduation from High School!
♦Movies
♦Hershey Park with your family & mine
♦Shopping with me (haha)
♦Cedar Point with Kristen & Kyle
♦Ocean City with your family =]
♦Helping you decide what you want to do with your life
♦Mini-golfing everywhere!!
♦Driving to Six-Flags for a day
♦Fairs =]
♦Half-assed apologies
♦Skiing & snowboarding
♦Parties in Tyler's apartment with Falin, Nate, & Nick
♦Jet skiing at the lake
♦Selling your Civic =[
♦Getting that Jeep o_O expensive
♦Virginia Beach!!!
♦Busch Gardens with Falin & Tyler
♦Dorney Park with Shannon, Adriana, Cara, & RJ
♦Bike riding at Valley Forge!
♦Almost getting arrested with Shannon, RJ, & Russ *oops*
♦Getting my car ♥
♦RACING
♦Going to the Circuit with Alicia
♦Playing Apples to Apples with Katie & Jimmy
♦Crazy ladies...
♦Ocean City NJ with Falin, Tyler, & Nick
♦Scarlett's Party... o_O
♦That one party at Jenn's...
♦Hooter's wings with Brandon
♦Hanging out of RJ's car window in front of a cop...
♦RJ spilling his PEACHY all over my car at Sonic
♦Going over to Jermizzle's for his X-mas party
♦Working together all this time =]

♦&& the fact that you got pulled over twice, got a dent in your car, a scratch on the back, and had your neons fall off was all my fault


Haha Thanks for the MEMORIES I hope to have many more with you!

You know you love someone when you jump for their call...

Last night was a lot of fun!

I watched The Kingdom with my mommy and it was really good. After that Matt and I went midnight bowling, which was fun. We haven't went in awhile so it was nice. In our first game Matt did really good and some guy that was next to asked us how to do it cuz he was really bad and then after that Matt couldn't do it anymore! I won 3 games and he won 2. Which is funny cuz I never made it over 100...

After we left we went to Wendy's cuz we were hungry and waited in the drive-thru line forever! When it was finally time to take our order the guy didn't have anything we wanted and complained that he was closing in 5min. So we just left and went to Wawa for sammies.

Then on the way home Matt decided he had to race a Civic in my car and we won yay! But Matty finally realized that I was right and my car is a little too light cuz when it's going fast it feels really floaty and strange. Oh well, it does it's job.

Anyway, today I got up and ready Antigone... boring... For some reason Greek drama makes me snore =] But I have to write a response paper on it so I guess I had to read it. I also work today, from 2-10 which sucks. I hate working every weekend. I never have a day when I can just relax.

Oh well, that's life.






I love you ♥

Rainy Day Man

Hmm today was kind of boring. I got up at 8am to go to school and it was raining/icy but of course KU doesn't close or anything. So I went to school and I had to be the only person doing 80 on the highway... It was ridiculous. Anyway, went to the first two classes cuz I had quizzes then left cuz it was misrable there. I almost fell about 5 times and the wind kept trying to take my umbrella away.

After that I met Matt at BTI and we went to Panera's for lunch yay! It was nice to get to see him before work since now I have to wait until 10 to hang out with him. I think that I don't get to see him in regular clothes enough cuz every time that I do see him in regular clothes I find it to be very attractive lol... weird.

Anyway, today I have to read and write a response paper for monday, do German, and probably a few other things for Monday. I work the rest of the weekend so it really sucks. :(

Hopefully, tonight Matt and I will go out somewhere and have some fun but I don't know the weather is kind of weird and stuff. That's all.

Cute Survey! ♥♥♥

TEN facts about me
10. I'm random
9. I work at Turkey Hill
8. I live in Denverr
7. I go to KU
6. I snowboard
5. I like to go on pointless drives
4. I like to read
3. I love to write
2. I'm a dork
1. I love my cute boyfriend, Matt


NINE ways to win my heart
9. Hold my hand
8. Kiss me softly
7. Tell me I'm beatiful
6. Make me laugh
5. Write me little love notes
4. Hold me tightly
3. Always smile
2. Tell me secrets
1. Say you love me


EIGHT things that annoy me
8. Rumors
7. Drama queens
6. Not getting enough sleep
5. Homework/papers
4. My dog
3. Country music
2. People
1. Working


SEVEN things I love to do
7. Dance
6. Bowl
5. Snowboard
4. Mini-golf
3. Work out
2. Have Fun
1. Drive


SIX places I want to travel
6. China
5. Japan
4. Russia
3. France
2. England/Ireland
1. Germany


FIVE things I want before I die
5. Have a nice house
4. Write a novel (or 2)
3. Make a lot of money
2. Get all my dream cars♥
1. Marry my true love


FOUR things I'm afraid of
4. Death
3. Ghosts
2. Failing
1. Losing Matty (In any way)


THREE of my favorite things
3. Computer
2. Ipod
1. Car

TWO that I do every day
2. Shower
1. Talk

ONE person I want to be with
1. Matty



Survey Again...
1. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
Why not? I think he's cute lol

2. When is the last time you met someone new?
Hmmm every day of my life lol

3. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
Nooo

4. When did you last eat pizza?
Awhile ago

5. When was the last time you drank beer?
December? I'm not a big drinker

6. Do you have any famous friends?
Nope

7. Are you any good at poker?
Haha there are many stories with poker...

8. What do you want more than anything?
To get out of school, get a house, and have money (for once)

9. Are you tired?
Yeah, maybe I'll take a nappy

10. Last spoken words you heard?
"You're dad's asleep"

11. Have you ever kissed anyone named Mike?
No... I don't think I have

12. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
My closet haha

13. Pepsi or Coke?
Coke

14. Have you ever thrown up?
Um yeah...

16. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
Why not

17. Taco Bell or McDonald's?
Taco Bell

18. Are you restless?
Most of the time

19. Is your computer desktop or a laptop?
A broken laptop that now functions only as a desktop...

21. How many myspace views do you have?
???

23. Do you believe dreams come true?
Not really, I'm cynical

24. Last song you heard?
20 Dollar - MIA

25. Do you like Batman?
Sure

26. Who is in the room with you?
No one

27. What are you wearing on your feet?
Sockies

28. What is/are your favorite pair of shoes?
Hot pink & lime green Asics

29. Who was the last person you told you loved them?
Matt

30. What was the last thing you ate?
French onion soup

31. What were you doing before this?
Folding my laundry

32. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
The belt to my coat?

33. In your opinion what is the weirdest thing listed on google?
I don't know

34. What instant messaging service do you use?
AIM

35. What is your favorite website?
Myspace

36. Who's house were you at last night?
Matt's

37. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
Jeans

38. What is the last movie you watched?
Sydney White lol

39. What do you currently hear right now?
The hum of my computer

40. When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
Oh about a week ago... I'm a shopping addict...

41. When did you last take a shower?
This morning

43. Have you ever heard of the band Our Lady Peace?
Yeah

44. Where is your mom?
Living room?

45. Where do you sleep?
In bed

46. Where do you shop the most?
Wherever there's a sale

47. Where did you get the shirt that you are wearing?
Aero

48. Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?
Hmm game tickets I think

49. What are you doing on saturday night?
Working :(

50. Why did you pick your layout?
It's fun

51. Would you date any of your ex's again?
Probably not

52-53..???

54. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
Well see I did that, let's say it didn't work out ;)

55. Have you ever talked about marriage with someone before?
Yeah, actually

56. Do you want someone you can't have?
Nope I have him now

57. Do you believe love at first sight exists?
Sort of

58. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yeah of course

59. Do you believe that you can change someone?
Nope, I know you can't

60. Would you ever consider getting engaged or married right now?
Engaged, sure... it's not like you have to marry for awhile anyway

Lazy

So I've really gotten lazy with this thing. I didn't mean to, I've just been busy. Not much has really happened since August anyway. My one grandma got cancer and ended up dying Jan 7th, but that's about it. Otherwise, it's been a rather boring 5 months or so.

Here's something interesting... I've officially started writing again. This time maybe I will actually do it and finish it. I've had it all in my head for so long but I just haven't been able to get motivated enough to write it all down and have it make sense. I tend to ramble.

I guess I'm going to try to keep up with this thing now and actually write down what's going on in my life. For instance...


Today, I got up and did laundry and soon I have to go to work. I have to finish my IPA and German homework for tomorrow and somehow learn about 50 German nouns and verbs by tomorrow (yeah right.) After work I'm going over to Matt's and we're doing a little running cuz he thinks that he's fat so I'm excercising with him YAY! Haha he even bought a bike rack for his Jeep so he can start riding again (of course I have to come along too.)

I can't wait till this summer some time. As soon as Matt pays his mom back he's going to look for a car. He wants to keep his Jeep and get another car and he's looking at an Integra GSR or a Civic SI. It'll be fun to have him have a fast car again. I miss it sometimes :)

Well that's all for today! I'll try to keep up with this.


Survey!
Your ex is on the side of the road, on fire. What do you do?
I guess I would try to help, that would be the nice thing to do

Your best friend tells you she is pregnant. What is your reaction?
.....

When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Eh awhile ago I think

Congratulations! You just had a son. What's his name?
Christian

Congratulations! You just had a daughter. What's her name?
Claudia

What are you craving right now?
Nothing in particular

What was the last thing you cried about?
My grandma died

When you buy something and your change is a penny. Do you keep it or tell the cashier to keep it?
I keep it lol

What color is your tissue box?
Flowery Redish

Do you have a ceiling fan in your room, and if so, is there dust on that fan?
I don't have one, I'm always cold anyway

What is the last voice mail you received about?
Hmm probably Matt, but I usually answer my phoen so I don't get those

Scariest thing you've experienced in the last year?
Hmmmm

What do you order when you go to Taco Bell?
I forget what they're called... but they come with guacamole YUM

Have you ever had a garage sale?
Not at my house

What is the last alcoholic beverage you had?
Coffee hahaha Irish cream

Are you happy right now?
Sure why not

Who came over last?
Matt

Do you drink beer?
Yeah but it's not my fav

Dark or light jeans?
Whichever I feel like

What was the last movie you watched at home?
Good Luck Chuck

What is in your pocket?
I don't have a pocket right now

Who introduced you to your boyfriend?
Haha Turkey Hill? Also sorta Becca...

Where do you hurt?
My legs ache a little

What is your favorite aisle at Wal-Mart?
Make-up!

When is your birthday?
April 22

What are you going to do after this?
Get a shower and go to work

Who was the last person you went shopping with?
All by my lonesome

What about your favorite dessert?
Apple pie (only when mommy makes it)

Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
Nope

What kind of car do your siblings drive?
A Cavalier ew lol

Do you like pickles?
Sure

Is someone in love with you?
I do think so

What color is your couch?
It's black and green haha ew

Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
My sister and I have been mixed up many times

Does someone like you right now?
I sure hope so

Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
Not that I'm aware of

Do you like the color green?
Yeah

How many hours did you sleep for last night?
About 10...lol I was tired

Do you swear at your parents?
No

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I hope